Let's see if you send it back. We all know or knew someone like this!!
One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.
His name was Kyle.
It looked like he was carrying all of his books.
I thought to myself, 'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd.'
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.
His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him.
He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes. My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, 'Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives.'
He looked at me and said, 'Hey thanks!' There was a big smile on his face.
It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude. I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now. I would have never hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes.
We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
I stopped him and said, 'Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!'
He just laughed and handed me half the books. Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends. When we were seniors we began to think about college.
Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak. Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great.
He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes I was jealous! Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, 'Hey, big guy, you'll be great!' He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. 'Thanks,' he said. As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began:
'Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends... I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story.' I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.
He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.
He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile. 'Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable.'
I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.
Never underestimate the power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's life. For better or for worse. God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.
Look for God in others.
You now have two choices, you can:
1) Pass this on to your friends or
2) Delete it and act like it didn't touch your heart.
As you can see, I took choice number 1.
'Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.'
There is no beginning or end.. Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift.
It's National Friendship Week. Show your friends how much you care. Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND.
If it comes back to you, then you'll know you have a circle of friends.
WHEN YOU RECEIVE THIS LETTER, YOU'RE REQUESTED TO SEND IT TO AT LEAST 10 PEOPLE, INCLUDING THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU
The person who sent this to me is a very old and dear friend. I know she didn't mean to hurt me--she wouldn't hurt me in a million years--but I just can't forward it to anyone.
My heart cries,
WHERE WAS I WHEN JIM NEEDED SOME HELP WITH HIS BOOKS?
Maybe he knew something I didn't. My efforts to help had not been enough.
I read the story.A partial answer to your question might be how much longer did your love keep him alive. I will leave the explanations to someone else. Ia still dealing with my guilt for not dragging him to the Dr.the last time I saw him. Betty
ReplyDeleteHe was so stubborn. I think it might have taken a ball bat and a winch.
ReplyDeleteI only know Jim through your writing.
ReplyDeleteBut I am willing to guess he had some problem or problems for a long time,and hid it from you. And you did say he was a good actor,so I figure that your love was what had kept him going for so long..
Sometimes we never get an answer to our questions...and it can drive us crazy if you let it. This was NOT your fault hun..and I'm sure your friend wasn't thinking about how that story would affect you,but she or he should have.
maybe he or she just hit he forward to everyone in their email address book, not thinking!..I'm sorry you were upset..((((HUGS))))
Just something else for you to deal with, Ronni. Jim obviously didn't want your help and he made sure that he gave you not the slightest inkling about what he was planning.
ReplyDeleteGetting over the sense of guilt is going to be your biggest hurdle. It will also be the hurdle that sets you free. I hope it happens soon.
Sorry, I'm not sending this on either. I don't think I've helped a single soul in my life. I'm ashamed.
Coming up on six months. I think about it a lot.
ReplyDeleteI think you probably were carrying his books the first day you met. I agree with Betty, Terri, mgt.. I didn't know Jim very well, but I believe he must have had deep problems that no one suspected, especially because he was such a good actor. It's so much easier said than done, but I join all your friends in saying please please don't hold on to that guilt. Selfishly I say: You, Ronni are too valuable to us and your family. ...tracie
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