Steve Huff, at Random Lunatic News has a piece today about suicide. As is usual with Steve's articles, it is concise and evocative. It helps to read the thoughts of somebody who has been somewhere close to where I am.
Tonight, I am nervous. I may just leave the TV on all night. Brendan is at his Dad's, so I'm alone here.
It has been a long time since I have been alone. Really alone.
I've heard some women complain about their husbands' snoring. I never minded Jim's.
It's very quiet in there, now.
Tomorrow is another day.
You are not alone Ronni. I was once on vacation w/ my father and he was snoring all night and I consciously said to myself "consider those sounds a lullabye because one day you will miss them". I get what you are saying. Some of us are out here reading you and walking right along side you.
ReplyDeleteShoot, when you are in love with someone, you never hear the snores.
ReplyDeleteActually my own dad could blow doors off their hingees and I could hear him through closed doors. It never bothered my mother and if you love someone, it never does.
Shoot Husband # 2 pour moi snored as did his sister, who was my roomate in boarding school and I was not deff then and it never bothered me. It is all about love.
ReplyDeleteAt least when they're snoring, you know they are there.
ReplyDeleteYep tomorrow is another day Ronni.
ReplyDeleteBig deap breath, one foot in front of the other. Baby steps.
Sometimes you may even go back a few.
We are here for you.
Keep writing special lady. x
How are you cats? Are they acting differently?
Red immediately stopped sleeping on top of the TV. Some of them are restless and some are a bit clingy.
ReplyDeleteOne keeps escaping.
Animals suffer as well, when they lose someone.
ReplyDeleteWhen my mother passed away I was still at school, we had a lovely Golden Retriever. He would get under our house and cry so loud, that our neighbour use to come and collect me from school because he wouldn't come out for anyone else. He missed her so much, she also had a lovely tabby cat, his name was Samson, he passed away a week after he death.
I felt a lot of comfort from my fury friends.
I had a family member that took her life when I was younger, and my parents bought me the golden retriever, because they felt it would comfort me and it did help me I had him untill I was 21 years old and we shared a lot together. I hope they are for you as well Ronni.
Thank you for sharing this sad and emotional time with us, Ronni.
ReplyDeleteYou will never be alone..."we" are guarding your back, ready to catch you if you stumble.
Remember, what Loretta said...ask, ask, ask.
Hi Ronni,
ReplyDeleteI have just read Steve's post and wanted to offer my condolences on the loss of your husband.Hang in there.
Thanks, Liz. I appreciate it!
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